zhudajiu朱大九——龙泉之眼

days through dead dark.

Sun, 28 Nov 2010 20:48:40 -0500

last weekends we played less pc games, for i too elated in purchase, including blank dvds, mouse&mouse pad, power sock to facilitate baby using pc or desk lamp without messy wires his mom usually ignores. moments with baby all bright, esp before i left him on Sunday 5pm, when i held him in arms&on laptop to watch TV. baby sometimes ate less dinner, &bargain for eating. i hope God not allow him suffer insufficient nutrition.
in the weekends i also saw local mafia members. the bus route me between QRRS dorms&Qiqihar railway station where baby’s mom’s house locates, namely No. 9 bus, usually jammed like a fish can. on Saturday dusk, just after i join the jammed bus, a young man stood against front door of the bus pushed me&let me here&there to stand, like there is a real rule aboard, but in fact its only message just to reveal his sovereign. them when bus passing some stops, 2 men just loudly quest the passengers if anyone leaving, if not then just passed the stops without porting. when i managed to approach the leaving door of the bus, a man stood against the door heavily profaning a girl, forcing her to browse on her mobile irritatedly. so long time rumor that QRRS&its area infected with mafia likely a fact.
the sermon in local church also less satisfying. the Priest said traveling to other city, a woman looks like his sister offered the preach, which likes other preaches by women i heard there, don’t research the bible but just ruling out persuades sometimes commonplace reinforced by excerption from bible. and its point or examples of God’s mercy quite trifle. in the night i dreamed of my Taiwan girl passionate&woke up to make water twice. also dreamed baby fell into a tunnel full of water, when we watched workers install pole of power line&electronic equipment. God let me avoid breakfast but joined office directly, where the sin, the monitor, profaned heavily, challenged me by closing office door persistently.
its a bright morning after 2 days snow, the 3rd in winter 2010. God, great bliss ahead let me fly in wonder. God, let my girls join me sooner, in our new families. i need family, as u know. let my business has its stance&boot up. save my works online. sanitize my girls in any situations. God,

26/11/2010

sunny days after snow.^since yesterday i enjoy nice service from meebo.com, God saves. these 2 days sees more idle time online, also more time i enjoyed using the office in QRRS alone. in night buzzed baby’s mom, who complained a lot about my abusing bonus. I let her shut up&told her unlikely borrow her money any more in the future. in night reviewed how baby love his own mobile with 2 toy cellphones, felt deep sorrow for my ignorance upon his dewy likeness, &decided if financially allows i will buy him a baby mobile phone in coming months. chill in dorm woke me up early 5am last dawn, so i made some changes in room layout against chill near window. this morning i found likely an official spy in dorm peeking my room. God, save my works, bring my girls into my family ahead!

15/11/2010

an auspicious day.^yesterday mostly pale, later in afternoon started 3rd snow in winter 2010. got official inform from cashier of the department to fetch bonus of ￥300. there i was even cordially told bonus directly into my bank deposit card is more than ￥1400, while most crew earns ￥2500 or so. so rich meanings in the bulk. the sky likely opener&brighter for me, for I see God’s promise that I’m the most informed&decisive versatile. tried meebo’s new service. read&tweet. baby’s mom also relieved by the good news of long time rumored bonus, while baby busy with animation online&refused to talk to me as usual. i really hope sooner i can treat him a dinner he likes. God, thx for ur gift in time. these days i more&more sensed closer my girl Zhou&our marriage ahead. i know ur arrangement is the best for the Royal of China, my family with my girls&sons. God, help my mother in hometown recover from her dying age, as dad allows. Its a bright morning, God, thx for all beauty in my life.

14/11/2010

a day in celebrating.^yesterday finally got family namespace with about.me, a site just roll out off its beta stage. then posted tweet daily. the company, QRRS, dispatched bonus among its staff, the sinful monitor in office avoid informing me, while a tricky female colleague let me know&persuade me to fetch my share on my own, but she is not from official channel, so i did like usual: just waited for formally informed. got a game delayed days from web, so aspiring. left office in time. baby’s mom told me my salary just arrived in my bank account, nearly a week passed after i received the salary sheet /invoice. on way left office, doubts of harms by the criminal minded demon in office let me anxious, esp. unease about if they steal my income from QRRS amid, now that i intended to be contacted only by QRRS official. God ceases it as i pray the Majesty not to let anyone on the earth can deteriorate my full responsibility&sight. the full moon especially bright. i know that’s all of my Empire of China in God’s shine. God, bring me what i deserve. shine ur Son&the Holy with seasonal gift. God, bring me my Royal of China sooner, my girls in our prime time.

PS: bonus arrived. the clerk woman informed me. i got ￥300 cash&￥1400 or so in bank deposit card. with the bonus, i just remit hometown ￥1000 for my duty. bought badly needed teeth brushes&paste, and my favorite drink, tea. Its a pale morning, but God u see, how blessing it can be.

13/11/2010

a day sees light.^yesterday mostly busy with posting recent photo for 2nd snow of winter 2010. China surveillance blocked some time, myspace failed my logon strangely many times, but later accept me to post the blog. sins in office again attacked heavily, now that their failure overwhelming&doomed. at noon activated family google apps’ new services for small companies with their web domains. after dinner when i roamed outside QRRS Dorms, it turned clear why the monitor so furiously hated me: the sin losing its potency, &in horror of been found of the fact beyond his family! the dirty administrative of the dorms harnessed 4 and more camcorders in the corridor, one of its staff, the only provincial folk from Hubei, a Li, buzzed in at noon, inquiry about espionage software to filter cams’ video for non-attendant alarm. so lots of trifle thoughts harassed me when i roamed in night. but after rested in dorm, my joy gathered. buzzed hometown to express thanks, &my offers to support mother’s living there, with the rumored bonus. when i went to bed, it turns clearly a blessing day.

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days in clouds.

Sun, 10 Oct 2010 22:07:24 -0400

today there is sunshine but weak. i still frequently live penniless. with baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, peace in my heart echoing God’s praise forever unshakable. the cloudy weather since the end of National Day vacation warns me of many threats against my emerging Empire of China, but that’s only a far cry from the crashing loser on the scary land now dominating&smothering the Chinese people. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan, still caring my life, &even clearer she is reinforced by God who love the two subtly different nations thousand years lives apart while beats harmoniously pulse of life&faith. in a larger continent uncrowded&uncrossed, legend of proud&glory will continue to utter.
Ok, its a prompt post for baby’s recent photos in our unseductive National Day vacation. a Liu earns a Nobel peace prize. God sees the triumph of democracy unbreakable shines over Zhu’s, my honorable family since 2 dynasties in Chinese history.

10/10/2010

a day half cloudy.^in dawn dreamed of great view of Lordship, like carrying turtle which can drain the earth. arrived baby’s mom’s house early&bought them breakfast including bean curd juice. backup stuff before baby left to have Chinese Pinyin lesson. tried new games, till attracted by one. baby played a lot with his mom’s pupils there having their tutorials. lunch is rich, IE. toast beef with onion. lately i went to shower in pubic bathroom nearby. lingered awhile after returned, while baby watching animation online, his mom read novel online. anything can remind me my new marriage, that’s full at the moment. anything can cater to baby’s joy, that’s awaiting in coming new year. after dined in canteen, i joined local church, where i first time dozed for minutes. the sermon was warm&earnest, God, u see the distance between Heaven&my land now. tomorrow will be sunny, i assert.

9/10/2010

a day of my birthday, recharged.^reading all day while in heavy dirt from sins, ie. gays, in office. God let me gain from web like produce from field. its still foggy in morning, since last night, but turned weakly sunny in afternoon. i tried facebook new group feature as reported in my rss feeds, but unfortunately they were still unavailable for old groups. chatted awhile with hometown relatives in QQ, but not much fun. these days i frequently reckon support from Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Japan, if the sum could solve my deficit now gathered to near ￥2000, and my wish list for new year, a Dell game notebook will cost ￥7000, &some other spending like hometown duty, ie. life support of my old mother, write back broadband bill for my work online in my last hometown vacation from April to June, 2010 , ￥1000, &finally clear debt to my Taiwanese friend who help register domains, ￥2000. i badly want to treat my baby son&his mom 3rd time with toasted mutton, in a nearby restaurant next to the local church. God, these days i live in penniless but survived so well, i enjoyed every bite so sweet! God, i thank u for the weightless life, pl let me do as i will in coming year end celebrations. bring my girl zhou, or anyone of my girls into my arms, Asoh, u know, bring my new life from dream into routine&concrete.

7/10/2010

a foggy morning.^today is the first work day after National Day vacation. the fog started since last morning. in dusk i spent more time roaming outside to avoid dirt in dorm. this vacation started with a breakfast i bought for baby&his mom when they still on bed while i went over by bus near their house, and end with a lengthy nap baby&me both took on bed after gaming, while his mom busy with sorting house. my financial situation still worsening, but God let me enjoy life so sweet&meaningful. God, bring me my new family.

benzrad’s comment on the day

irresistible of Christian one world.

world tolerance to Islam must toward a moment when shows the formidable of Christian. delay of proper response can call forth menace&threats that’s real. God, bring clear the failure of Islam undebatable.

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1/10/2010

dreamed of our old house in my hometown, central China, rebuilt. my passed dad, God, taming a tiger. my second elder brother tamed another.

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holiday gifts for baby son entrusted.

Mon, 20 Sep 2010 12:13:49 -0400

today is so far a bright day, left over the darkness on yesterday. I’m to push this prompt blog entry to include recent tweets which mostly lengthy. looking upon the future, esp months ahead, i earnestly pray, God, let me have a new game notebook, a new udisk, and a new cellphone to replace my current one whose battery damaged heavily. i also want to treat baby in holiday with his favorite food in restaurant. God, u bring so many wonderful time in my life silent, the road for me on the earth never so clear ahead of me. God, the faith in me unshakable for light, for English, for holy&purity. God, bring my girls right time, allow us seeing the glory of u and the Son, allow us inherit the beauty&dignity from the most blessed, the Son’s. God, constantly shines me in Spirit on this planet.

20/9/2010

a day with bliss in the end.^started the day with new hope. read while attending d/l. dozed awhile in afternoon among challenges from facing sin. later found the dog shit let online movie playing while absent, just aiming to lag the Internet within office, like a mice in soup. God, i saw the glory from the falling sins around me. left office a quarter before over time, roamed outside after dinner, &met the girl with a large bag 3rd or 4th time on the lane of QRRS front door. its sunny in the morning, turned cloudy after noon, and stayed clear&weak while redden in dusk. join church after jog, enjoy elaboration on great faith in the preach. buzzed baby in dorm, he complained his mom put too many homework on him, i told him none on the earth or in the universe can cradle him or got him pinched, not even his mom. baby sheered off when i ready to infringe more on his mom. God, what i mean&ask for permits&executes in advance by ur love&mercy, God, dad, still i pledge on u to guaranty my baby’s forever light heart when he on the earth, the fragile planet. his mom no doubt has many darkness in her tiny heart&world of view, that meaningless for anyone in Holy Spirit, but as baby son still in need of care, improves his mom with due strength&merit. baby, u can do it, i know, we all know. dreamed in dawn of younger brother. join office around 6am.

19/9/2010

a big day.^yesterday important for the crisis of my financial life support. baby’s mom, emakingir, finally softened her anxious upon my poor finance&its uncertainty, &even treated us dining out after the day. its all time bright in sunny, baby enjoyed a new game whose protagonist is from his favorite cartoon, sponge bob. i also got badly needed dvd backup for my stuff. baby now joined 3 or more lessons, which drives him busy with trifles. i warned his mom the inefficiency of those lessons. lunch can be delicious, with hamburgers ema manually made, i also ate sweat grapes. its now a bright morning, a work day adjust for coming lunar Mid-Autumn Day vacation, which has 3 days free.

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17/9/2010

a day with perfect workout.^read all day while attending d/l. before 6pm i got all i admired&left office. enjoyed dinner in canteen where i absent for days, partially for too late, partially for empty wallet, in the past week. after dinner jogged outside, with my short pant its a bit cool, but i determined to train myself against chill. can’t help telling baby&his mom the good news of new bonus, which really solves. these days God accompanies me so many occasions, in dark time waiting for d/l finish, in shadow of violence threats, in flashing thoughts among reading to decide, and more and more. God, bring me my new marriage with my beloved, bring me my girls in our prime time. in night buzzed baby, my mother in hometown, my youngest elder sister, about the bonus with which God saves me from starvation&humiliation.
in dawn dreamed of the worn skin of my right heel completely in wholesome peeled off by me. got up to make water&glad with the dream. then dreamed of harmonious life with one of my girls. it’s a bright morning now.

16/9/2010

save arrives while attest endures.^yesterday’s sandstorm brought a peaceful sunny Thursday. dusts down like the effect of a drizzle in late Autumn. weak but bright sunshine likes milk&fragrance of lily. more elation of harvest of interesting pc games. got a holiday bonus of ￥200 from QRRS. God saves me from defame of penniless&starvation. but this month salary again suffers lose, stopped at ￥1095. God, i need a new game gear, Dell notebook studio 14, and a new udisk. i can wait, but my mind don’t change: i want to try more pc games. my girls, my beloved, pardon me for my engagement with e-entertainment alone. i want to keep up with full view of my Empire of China, but God sees i need new experience of independent navigation on landscape unclear, like video games, to reinforce my dream of rich, of plenty, after the America Dream. i had to atop the arena of sci-social foundation to be informed in Holy shine. baby, my Queens, i live with u every moment.
a blessing day.^today full of bliss. gained quite some games dreamed of. rested afternoon for resilient from yesterday’s intensive chore of maintaining legend pc baby made frequent usage. claimed more vanity url for family sites with x.co. the office pal tentatively talked about violence by local hooligans. left office before 5:30pm, join canteen at once. rest on garden bench, doubting surrounding gangsters. roamed outside&talked awhile with the previous chief director of the factory, now a company, when i enrolled by the enterprise back to 1991, the year i graduated from Nankai Univ. on way near my office, met a girl with a large bag. its our second running across. today is due my girl zhou, or my girl i met on train from my 2nd hometown journey, appears to me, and God shows it in my meeting up with the girl leaving QRRS. its a bright day can’t be more splendid. God, bring me into my new life in arms of my girls.
this morning again bright. baby’s mom buzzed for missing password for logon desktop. i join office in hopes. i know i m to gain more.

15/9/2010

wrote a prompt blog entry to include recent tweets.^yesterday closest encountered violence, which brought me a cold shake. treating baby son KFC costed almost all of my pocket money his mom restrained. ate grapes baby’s mom brought, quite sweat they r. teeth strangely automatically bleeding in night. dreamed a lot in dawn. posting/blogging quite smoothly this time. attending d/l while read. some minor sandstorm cast lots of sands on desktop&its keyboard. God, saves me from humiliation of begging dinner! lives me in peace&far from wanting!

From life as it extends

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touching warm late Autumn sunrise in QRRS dorms.

panorama of QRRS front open space.

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days in game light, tumbling toward happier new life.

Tue, 07 Sep 2010 13:47:32 -0400

days in game light, tumbling toward happier new life.

storm in anticipation.

Wed, 01 Sep 2010 06:16:48 -0400

storm in anticipation.

peace in drifting life in eye of violence typhoon.

Tue, 31 Aug 2010 12:24:49 -0400

peace in drifting life in eye of violence typhoon.

sunny day sees this summer once lavish wading into river of golden memory.

Wed, 25 Aug 2010 23:15:19 -0400

sunny day sees this summer once lavish wading into river of golden memory.

farewall to lavish summer

Tue, 24 Aug 2010 01:55:02 -0400

Its a raining day this morning, exactly as Chinese lunar calendar indicting, Chushu, 处暑, summer heat is over. i walked barely in rain with my work suite, ie. notebook&camera, to join office, for every work day is meaningful for me, cultivation, accumulation, and harvest. last afternoon it also rained amid sunshine, its in fact a sun rain, i told baby its the most blessing weather. we had a longest time in years playing pc games together and succeeded most missions while his mom napped in another room. then we dined out. here r the moment we gathered&dined. baby naught a lot in the dinner, with his favorite food Guobaorou, flour coated pork. his mom these day frequently complained enough of him. after dinner, the rain stopped, we walked back, and i departed them on the ground near baby’s mom’s house.
after returned to QRRS dorms where i lingered for my new marriage, i directly join local church from bus stop, listened a nice preach by the male Priest, who elaborates more on bible, comparing his female pal who only recited poems or quotation from bible. the preach again discussed strong believing as my favorite. after the believers left, i expressed obligation to the Priest, we both felt blessed. on the garden of the dorm, i buzzed baby&his mom, who more and more felt at a loss in our once broken marriage. i buzzed twice to encourage baby lives in patience to see the bright days, for only with bitter or tasteless, we enjoy more the elation and sweat of bliss when it pours in. quite some girls in the dorms haunted outside around me. i can’t say other but it all can’t be more accomplished.
in the night, i roamed in dorm, reviewing my good time and ahead. sometimes i can’t but sang loudly. i also drank a bit. God, u see how close the day of my wedding beset. my baby son badly need a new mother to cook him delicacy. i badly need a soul of girl accompanies&shares our love to u, the Mightiest. God, rid me of anxious, bring my girls to me, to my new Empire of China.
That’s my another happy weekends.

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benzrad, 朱子卓, in restaurant amid a sunrain, shot by warrenzh, 朱楚甲.

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great bliss never seen.

Sat, 07 Aug 2010 21:00:46 -0400

its drizzling when i breakfast in QRRS dorms canteen&heading to office in this weekend. this dawn i had a wonderful dream. i first dreamed of matching in dark. people were put in dark&sex with matches reached in dark house. i trying to find my mate but didn’t excite. then dream raising a fish, namely likely Giant salamander, then in an exam to report on the fish. i always hate exam. after exam, i saw a younger fish accompany the fish we raise, the latter then has its gender. then i informed that the fish’s tail and meat above shouldn’t be eaten as a custom. woke up&reviewing baby’s asking not to be God sometimes those days, i was so blessed that baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, exactly my son, my dearest son. the bliss so great that i got up at once. a drizzle already passed over just amid my dream, after i made water in dawn. the breakfast is plausible, includes a sweat pie. on way to office, it drizzled again, so many loves from Masheng, my Crowned Queen of Japan.
yesterday i visited baby son in his mom, emakingir’s house. ema still in loss in her refusal loan of 400rmb to let me buy family 4th domain, benzrad.us ( http://benzrad.us ). i criticized her in our QQ chat. but my Taiwanese friend help me after rebuffed me once buy the domain exactly yesterday as i suggested in memory of Masheng, who long time urges me to own continents against future world disaster. ema buzzed me twice but both didn’t reach me in noisy situation. soon after i arrived there, i told i need her loan, which greatly relief her. she lost 1900rmb and more last weekend when she answered my call on way to River Nen with baby son. that money was offered by me to buy her a e-bike to carry baby son route his kindergarten, for ema complained baby grows that she hardly carry him with her old bike. its all time a bright Saturday, i also showered in public bathroom. baby enjoyed ice cream&candy i bought by the way. i backup stuff from web, tried new games on his notebook. baby glad to see the fresh game experience. near 3pm, i hold him slept on my shoulders. then held him on my arms, till later shifted to bed. his mom urged me to leave, so i returned to dorm, where i ate an early dinner.
in reviewing the glory of my family, my heart often fulfilled with proud. God, the only missing is my beloved girls, esp the girl on the train when i returning to Qiqihar from my dad’s hometown, back to Jun 5,2010, and my girl Zhou, once appeared&hunted after by me till the company startled&stopped me. i know they praying for me, bring us together, God!

6/8/2010

cloudy morning with periodical sunshines.^for no available helping hands for loan for my new domain, i decided trying alipay, a Chinese copy of paypal. waiting the process finished to let me pay overseas. this morning is cool, but periodical sunshine very bright&aspiring. sorted stuff, activated baby’s mom, emakingir’s 163 mobile email box, retouch her signatures. its the first day the company complies new national common exercise ordain. China steadily falls into trifle&loosing off&losing end. the old time collective exercise helps none but the dead in chamber, kills nothing but time&creativeness. See this Amp at http://amplify.com/u/8e3x

5/8/2010
hopeful a new domain join my titles soon.^read. talked to Taiwanese friend for loan to buy a new domain for my web id. sorted bookmarks to include it&backup. backup family google knol to zoho wiki. sorted stuff before dinner. in dorm prepared confidential for family new member site. its a pale morning. 2 friends rebuff my plan of buy the domain. i had to delay the registry. dozed awhile after lunch, dreamed of losing in exam, which i dislike very much.

4/8/2010
dreamed of new domain buy&restless reckons of debt.^read. refined autopost to posterous among family amplify accounts. got “starcraft Ⅱ” finally, amid praying God for pardon me lingering in office for games. played badminton with the couple whose wife worked in neighbor office after dinner. baby didn’t talk to me in daily buzz. dreamed of buy one or two domains for my web id, indecisive upon the cost, for my poor financial status hardly supports. join office earlier than 7am. a pale morning like yesterday but still i felt Masheng’s love. God, what’s the gap between our reuniting?

3/8/2010
warned of vilification from familiars.^last afternoon chatted with 2 young folks from Zhudajiu, my hometown. one serving in Chinese Navy. in night God notified me of stab from the back by folks seemingly intimates. dreamed a lot in dawn. sorted os after found its infectious. China surveillance blocked my os auto-update for quite some cases, till i adopt a lan proxy&done. office turns a hell at noon, for all crews stayed, just aim to espionage&challenge me. felt glad with a cleaner os. Masheng, save my work.

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cloudy morning with periodical sunshines.

Thu, 05 Aug 2010 21:45:56 -0400

cloudy morning with periodical sunshines.^for no available helping hands for loan for my new domain, i decided trying alipay, a Chinese copy of paypal. waiting the process finished to let me pay overseas. this morning is cool, but periodical sunshine very bright&aspiring. sorted stuff, activated baby’s mom, emakingir’s 163 mobile email box, retouch her signatures. its the first day the company complies new national common exercise ordain. China steadily falls into trifle&loosing off&losing end. the old time collective exercise helps none but the dead in chamber, kills nothing but time&creativeness.

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hopeful a new domain join my titles soon

Thu, 05 Aug 2010 00:20:40 -0400

hopeful a new domain join my titles soon.^read. talked to Taiwanese friend for loan to buy a new domain for my web id. sorted bookmarks to include it&backup. backup family google knol to zoho wiki. sorted stuff before dinner. in dorm prepared confidential for family new member site. its a pale morning. 2 friends rebuff my plan of buy the domain. i had to delay the registry. dozed awhile after lunch, dreamed of losing in exam, which i dislike very much.

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dreamed of new domain buy&restless reckons of debt.

Tue, 03 Aug 2010 19:33:39 -0400

dreamed of new domain buy&restless reckons of debt.^read. refined autopost to posterous among family amplify accounts. got “starcraft Ⅱ” finally, amid praying God for pardon me lingering in office for games. played badminton with the couple whose wife worked in neighbor office after dinner. baby didn’t talk to me in daily buzz. dreamed of buy one or two domain for my web id, indecisive upon the cost, for my poor financial status hardly supports. join office earlier than 7am. a pale morning like yesterday but still i felt Masheng’s love. God, what’s the gap between our reuniting?

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new hope of peace, party and timeless love.

Mon, 12 Jul 2010 22:05:46 -0400

the journey from my hometown, Zhudajiu, to Qiqihar, where baby son, warrenzh, lives with his mom, emakingir, cost me 3 days. ticket was bought by the sinful nephew who hated me for a long time against the glory my family shines. i had to accept the slowest train. its my first time seeing the new train station of Wuchang, one section of Wuhan. the waiting hall quite jammed, but i met a woman foreigner&exchanged some words. on the train i chatted with quite some interesting people, including some kids from Hunan Prov., a disgusting squad from Xiaogan, Hubei Prov., a cute kid girl from Hebei Prov., and a wine vendor who migrated from Qiqihar to Hebei for more than 10 years. near Harbin, 6 or 7 Muslim from Pakistani aboard, some of them play hide-and-seek with neighbor Chinese boys. i was touched by the kindness, so lately join them&discussed bible with them in English. with the holy shines over me, i caught in the last minute&aboard the train to Qiqihar from Harbin. a tall girl stood against the corridor greatly enchanted me, we gazed to each other for quite some time, and the holy bliss, with drizzle outside, enlightened most of the lounge. i followed the girl after we left the railway station, and told her my Chinese name before we departed. how i missing her, who should marry me now as my second Chinese wife. gathering with baby son was a saint moment. he refused to receive me when i knock out his mom’s door. after i bathed in public bathroom he picked me and played with me. he beat me with his shoe for quite some time till his mom halted him. i lingered in his mom’s house for a week, neither office nor public presence. baby still arranged by his mom to attending his kindergarten. we gamed on pc for quite some hours. i promised him if his mom don’t drive me away, i will stay till seeing he sleep alone in his room, instead of sleep with his mom now in his room, and shower with me in public bathroom. i also make it clear to his mom, emakingir, that we r free of any obligation with each other. i told her i would like to live in dorm as soon as baby sleeps on his own, while at this stage she didn’t grant baby sleeping apart from her.
baby son always has the best idea. last Saturday he suggested family haunting Lun river, which a half of hour bus from his mom’s house. and i long time since return from my hometown journey suggested letting me treat baby son with his favorite restaurant. baby likes buffet as usual. ema arranged it around 2pm in Sunday. its really a bright tour, we babbled a lot on the bus, waved lots of bubbles in the river Lun, shot lots of wonderful photos in the river. and when ema felt hungry, baby narrowly agreed to leave, with the promise we will return there next week. in buffet i completed my dinner soon, while ema prolonged the pleasure as her best. the coffee really nice, arrest both of the adult in the family. God sees. now i first time enjoy surfing under my account since the tour back to Qiqihar. surely brighter the sky above me and my Royal of China.

1/7/2010

God brings me back.^prepared recent photos for posting in early morning. then elder brother informed the Internet account again resumed by its subscriber. retouched logo for site zhuson.com, for original design’s source file missing within my backup. the sister-in-law join the CCP’s party&asked mother went over to help her caring her grandson. Watched TV after lunch&dozed awhile, then had the idea to return Qiqihar, now that the heat here a bit daunts me. God arranged it all right. informed baby’s mom, emakingir. also asked elder brother to speed up to find me a Internet solution for a week when i can search traffic&ticket information to back to Qiqihar. its the most strong sunshine today in my this hometown journey.

30/6/2010

dreamed of dispute with ema over baby’s custody.^dreamed of touching love with baby. his mom attempted to dispare us, and accused of my mental disorder history. walked through a neighbor factory with seemingly another man, baby son or other person let me unease, where workers gathered discussing my situation. passed their rest room&woke up before leaving the room.
roughly setup family 3rd domain, zhuson.com.^got up earlier, lauched soon newly claimed domain, zhuson.com’s site content on registrar’s free host, as well as Google apps for it. remapping url for blog,www, etc. roughly clone family 1st domain, be21zh.org’s content to the new site. claimed groups with vodpod with family most namespaces. backup bookmarks&settings for portable. quite fruitful this morning, which is sunny.
a rich dinner, brewing pork with corn.^attending d/l most day. quit near 5pm&felt hungry. dinner quite rich, corn is very sweet&juicy. it rained late afternoon but stopped after dinner. hope baby&his mom can come over to taste delicacy here. most night reading.

29/6/2010

enjoy&suffer for d/l.^got up&let d/l, then napped again till breakfast. read most day. in late afternoon prepared content for new domain, zhuson.com, but disappointing logo’s source file evaded among my backup. it drizzled in afternoon but last no more than an hour. backup stuff from web. sunburn awhile, talking with Masheng on busy&leisure. hope i can make time more meaningful.
a rich dinner&video chat.^haunted outside before dinner. again walked alone the road connecting the village. i really missing baby son&hope he visit here next month, God, u know. drank at dinner, among neighbor’s female watching. it drizzled then. watched awhile TV, then chatted with baby&his mom online. i sure will see their journey in end of July to dad’s hometown.

benzrad’s comment on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓 (http://t.qq.com/bentchu)
要价不算贵，真的！！！白给一样，白给中国老百姓。国民党好。
转播: 英九提出:大陆要想和平统一，只有一个终极条件，那就是开放党禁，建立法治社会，真正建立一人一票的民选政府，使国民党登陆，两党平等竞争，轮流执政。马英九还批评大陆只有一党之私，没有为天下苍生的度量。

28/6/2010

finally got haircut.^mother woke me up to go haircut. she said she met a guy who last dusk promised to send me to market to haircut. prepared&went to see those motor drivers. the guy was absent in his new house, while elder brother, who also has a motor, repairing a phone. the youngest son of the dark house in front of my dad’s house, ready to leave for his workshop, so he fetched me&left me on the only barbershop on his way. but i waited for almost an hour before the barber arrival. i shot photos before&after haircut, felt glad. washed hairs at home before breakfast. now surfing. its cloudy now.
mother bought pork.^read most day. arranged more to d/l. dozed twice. its sultry&drizzled in late afternoon. mother trusted the cousin back of dad’s house to bought pork from city, for he owns a truck&commutes. dinner is delicious with pork&kelp.
a talkative night.^watched TV while attending d/l. sms sally as God lets. chatted with baby&his mom,who want to try qq games. i warned her the risk&sin of domestic warez, introducedfacebook’s plan to join China&persuade her be patient. also teased baby son.

benzrad’s comment on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓 (http://benzrad.amplify.com)
—-so strong the claim. that’s the superb of constitution, and the reason of human. that’s bible that saves the world sometimes so dark in history and coming eras, as well as new land in never seen glroy.
in reference to: “That is how a judge lives in a state of trust, and I know of no other way to make good on the aspirations that tell us who we are, and who we mean to be, as the people of the United States.” - http://www.thedefendersonline.com/2010/06/04/text-of-justice-david-souter%E2%80%99s-speech-harvard-commencement-remarks/ (view on Google Sidewiki)

27/6/2010

backup baby’s anniversary photos on sohu blog to other blogs.^attending d/l most time when i read. a nephew returned from his college in Wuhan, visited me, talked about his major. then discussed Chinese society nowadays. i doubting surveillance so quit later&engaged again on web. the devil, neighbor son, visited&trying to talk, left after rebuked. after dinner download photos shot in baby’s one year on the earth hosted on sohu blog portal to other blogs, including baby’s mom, emakingir’s 163 blogs. lingered in waiting room waiting d/l finish. didn’t talk to baby for too busy.
managed to catch up unreads in greader.^got up earlier for a d/l. read then napped awhile aside desk in front yard. backup stuff from web. supplement yesterday’s log&delayed likely by surveillance, which results in periodical unaccessible for some sites. first time in this summer ate water melon. dozed again after lunch while d/l. tried to contact concerned, sms sally, buzzed baby’s mom, emakingir, about her vacation. baby again accused my old curses even i can’t figure out when i did, but i sworn not in future&sorry for the passed. its a bit funny why baby remembered i cursed him while i only remember holy love&deeds between us. nothing more important than him in my life.
arranged haircut tomorrow.^prepared pc to finish d/l a large game. dinner is rich. haunted outside&shot photos for kids in village. fetched wire fork to wind wires bought recently. the state grid worker in village offered the fork, better than i expected. tried to meet elder brother to let him send me next morning to local market to haircut but failed. a guy promised to do it for me. roamed alone the road&chatted with a precast panels producer in his workshop. watched TV after bath&sorted stuff. baby&his mom went outside, returned near 9pm. she promised to talk online but didn’t.

From 1st weekend’s treat after reunited, swim&buffet

From baby’s bath in his dad’s arrival from hometown

From baby’s kindergarten show in summer

some slideshow from recent family activities

some home videos

family enjoy baptism in river Nen and buffet

family baptized in Nen river, enjoy buffet on way home. from benzillar on Vimeo.

family showered in weekend at home.

baby’s kindergarten party just upon his dad’s return from hometown journey.

for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

some lily in Zhudajiu’s old fish pond.

baby son, warrenzh, owner of domain warozhu.com, in his kindergarten’s party.

benzrad just got haircut in a nearby village in his hometown journey.

family dined in KFC after baby son asked for it.

panorama of Nen river shore.

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the complete of hometown journey, and reunited with baby son.

Mon, 12 Jul 2010 20:43:22 -0400

in a rain day benzrad, me, felt deep sorrow for his baby son, for not accompany him enough time when he is adoptive from the world around him. in a sultry sunny day, after a nap, he felt its time to return to join baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe. its the second hotest day in benzrad’s hometown journey 2rd, and he didn’t sleep well for 2 days in series in the hot weather.

Its the last work day in the first week of baby’s dad’s return from his hometown in central China. baby’s dad also suggested to buy a electronic bike, which a long time hunt for emakingir, baby’s mom. the night baby bathed, so did his mom&dad at home at cost of ema who prepared&clean the lavatory.

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rains and clouds, that's all bliss.

Thu, 10 Jun 2010 23:25:17 -0400

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8/6/2010

a beautiful rain night.^dinner is delicious. adding sidebar widgets to family clogs. the rain turns heavier in night. dirt around challenged me severely first&last quite some time. didn’t buzz baby. attending d/l till 10:29pm went to bed.
read&attending d/l since got up.^it rained all night. dreamed of baby son, but can’t remember now. patiently waited for download some games from web. buzzed baby’s mom, emakingir for several times but unaccessible. today is memorial day of our wedding ceremony back to 2002. missing baby son very much these days. it drizzled all time today, but i felt extraordinary blessed&secure. missing Masheng, girl zhou, girl lü, in my screaming of songs in dad’s old house in rain cats&dogs. after lunch, ema talked to me online, God don’t refuse what she dreams after or for. as to me, i quite satisfied by my new portable disk&collection of games&warez from the most endeared Internet. God, i never live apart a second with my baby son, God of Universe, U know!! i love him, u, so much!

9/6/2010

decision to return to baby son&aftermath.^last afternoon i felt pains, as well as inspiring from baby when i review family album online. decided to return Qiqihar to see him. God purified me with rains cats&dogs, and weeping cloudy. waited till baby returned from his kindergarten&buzzed in. baby received my call, permit my quit from my hometown Zhudajiu. informed elder sisters about my decision&asking help me buy train tickets on way to county city. rested in night with TV. then baby’s mom, emakingir buzzed in, changed my choice by her possible tour with baby to Zhudajiu next month if she was allowed to stay with new grade sixth students in new term as she did now. baby again didn’t talk to me in air, but i assured his mom i will be Ok if baby don’t missing me now. informed elder sisters the new decision, waiting here till see if baby with his mom can visit the village in summer vacation.
dreamed of baby again.^dreamed of cult sales or MLM, likely again dreamed of baby son in gloom. got up till breakfast ready. sunshine flushed when i went to make water. last afternoon i deleted all unfinished downloads for the return to baby son, this morning i first arranged d/l after workspace ready. its cloudy now, but God knows linkage between baby&me stronger than ever. how great it would be when warrenzh, owner of domain warozhu.com, visit his grandpa’s hometown second time with his mom in booming summer?!
tried new yahoo profile’s homepage.^supplement missing tweet yesterday for postponed elation of reuniting again with baby son in Qiqihar, for his mom suggested a possible revisiting my passed dad’s house in her summer vacation with baby. found yahoo redesigned user profile ui, made customization on it. nicely! also babbled with mother&visiting evil former neighbor wife on young lives’ perished China situation. the demon, eldest brother also visited in order to profane. Pray God shows me soon sunshine for sanity.

benzrad’s comments on the day.

benzrad朱本主子卓对邱松说: a new generation of akin with English just urging to given birth sooner after the collapse of nowadays China authority hates&inferior to western power. English url superior&enjoyed by most Chinese to come. then those url consisted by numbers hotly chased after by Chinese isp today will dumped like rubbish, or paper tiger like nowadays China currency. quite born losers investing sinks.

benzrad朱本主子卓转播:

there is surely disobedient between central Empire&tribe of Korea. || iamlukas(@iamlukas): || 爵士银猴(@i-houzi): +1

连岳 :养了一条狗，人人都说是狼，养大了发现真是狼，为了面子，还得搂着当宠物。——这就是中朝关系。

deadly craving for a real people’s representative government heated and on hot.

50 secs ago by

Benzrad Zhu

risk life to hurt bureaucracy who damage our life, that’s righteous, except the real hidden dog that manipulating the infringement of our peace&quality of lives for decades since the stolen state power turns inner-outward. robbery occurs everyday nowadays in China.

news.qq.com

广西梧州6名法官执行案件时遭泼硫酸 2人重伤

10/6/2010

God grants my joy of natural.^read while d/l most day. chatted with baby’s mom, emakingir online but she in bad mood&soon rebuffed. a bit curious about vacation tour she promised if available. talked more about God to mother&had to clean dirt with aid from God. lately dined while downloading. in night chatted again with baby&his mom who now in right mood, likely after reckons. also adding her vodpod TV site onto honored links on her 163 blogs. God sees its a nice day, even chill&wind let people stay indoor all the cloudy day.
dreamed of once workspace.^dreamed of QRRS, my once long time employer. dreamed of its dorms, where a girl in family name Gao, likely named Gaorongxin 高荣欣, and some other girls trying to date me or other stuff. got up lately just for breakfast. its windy again, but i managed to work in open space in dad’s front yard. enjoy Masheng in weak in need for me.!
a happy day with flock of visitors.^read till youngest elder sister&her husband visited for the coming dragon boat festival. mother cooked rich meal&drank&talked about kid brother’s fancy new female outside of his wife in county city. soon when i read again neighbor girls returned from labor living in developed cities in eastern China. they chatted online via qq, then demo&help the granddaughter of the evil dark house in front of ours use other products, including mail, microblog, alumni of qq, a Chinese monopoly portal. after dinner the recently frequent girl students visited&tried new games. they fascinated by a 3d game they likely first time experience. invited dined with us, granddaughter of elder brother tried a game she once played with my nephew&greatly enchanted. sorted stuff newly got from web till dark outside. watched TV till 9pm surfed again. didn’t contact with baby nor his mom today. it turns sunny shortly when girls fiddle with their qq. its the longest day i worked outside adopting convenience of clouds.

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

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Sunny days with games.

Sun, 06 Jun 2010 21:02:54 -0400

last night again dreamed of baby son, who sat in the inner circle of stadium watching a school sports game. when i attempted to care baby&asking him to move, his mom again refute my proposal, so i again lost temper and beat her. baby son cried and let me left. then i woke up. the scene in dream let me sorry, for i let baby indecisive, let his interest hurt, let me less know baby’s true feelings. its a pale morning, i felt i need more reinforce from God, my passed dad, Masheng, my Crowned Queen of Japan. God, u know all my road toward my new China Empire of 1109 years’ soverein, u know what’s i care most. put more tasks on me before the emerging reality turns clearer. bring my second son, one of ur gift for Masheng&me. promote me to new stage with my girls, esp. girl Zhou now, in best time in new marriage. God, let the thirsty drinks water, the burning for losing&revengeful healed. God, i forever live with u, my passed dad&most beloved baby son, warrenzh, owner of domain, warozhu.com.

God, my life here is quite enjoyable, except missing for my baby son, warren zhu. God, let my beloved in peace, lent ur Son more insight.

benzrad’s tweets on Jun 2,2010

God, i got my new portable hard disk. thx!^finally got my 3rd portable hard disk with my elder sister’s loan, including 2 wrecked in those years, like flying in clear sky! just got all data backup onto it. so clean now! the purchase happened in the county city, with my 2 brother-in-law&a nephew’s companion. shot more photos on the way for panorama. now i can drive my notebook more swiftly with less data load on it. without breakfast i launched, delayed some time in the county for elder sister who brought the loan arrived lately. its cloudy in the morning, but turns sunny when i returned home&launched to migrate/backup data onto the new hard disk. now it turned pale again. God saves.

all morning prepared posting blog with recent photos. first time tried panorama software to combine some photos of Zhudajiu village, and the result really daunting/amazing! treated visiting girls with games. when it drizzled i felt at home, and buzzed elder sister about the loan to buy myself a portable hard disk as she promised several days ago. positive answer at once gained. in the night arranged next day’s contacting&buying details with elder sister. talked to baby’s mom about baby’s birthday, but she refuted to go online. restless night for the joy of owning new storage media.
enjoy new portable storage.^migrated&backup data to new portable disk most afternoon, real nice work. mother bough fish. dined in back yard among dirty neighbor wives. haunted outside when mother babbled with a cheap woman. chatted with some folks in front plaza of the village. demons, including my elder brother, and good willed villagers let me wonder in front of fish pond in front Zhudajiu. buzzed baby’s mom about remission. felt discrete but mother sat aside me in room attempting rubbling. God, clear my way toward the Holy!

benzrad’s tweets on Jun 3,2010

busy with posting recent photos, esp. panoramas i made.^posting recent photos, including panoramas from footage. its sunny in morning, but now turns pale. nice to see task done.
the author has some points, but as to me, visionary or other great merit, is naturally lives in the living mind, lives in God’s message. the holder don’t hesitate in himself on things or vision ahead.
BTW, i don’t think facebook will replace nor wipe out google, but enrich the diversity of coming mobile information world with instant access anytime anywhere, with google, who exactly at the same time an innovator on the task. facebook more and more evolves itself from a close friends circle into an open world publish, like what google a veteran been with.
in a word, the world coming is a freer and more capable multiply dimensions. people live with more support of independent and plenty, esp digitally. God, of the world never seen and ever sees, don’t let the world deteriorate but constantly surprising the world witnesses.

read till waist fatigue.^read all afternoon, also attending download. rest some time on long bench in early dusk in front yard with music from cellphone. dinner is rich with pepper&fish in backyard. the neighbor husband tried to chat when we busy eating. haunted outside, taste water from the old well when i met a honest folk carrying water&follow him to his house. babbled about nowadays China and International affairs. felt dirty after left, praying God’s save on way to front pond, where i clean my thoughts. teased grandson of elder brother awhile on way home. mother foolishly while selfishly comment anybody talking to me should be obliged, i replied, anyone i talked to honored. she also attempted to persuade me doing chores myself. baby’s mom, emakingir, talked online about the clerk woman in office designed detaining baby’s kindergarten allowance granted by the company’s policy, aiming to let me close my journey here. i decided to let it go.

benzrad’s tweets&comment on Jun 4,2010

benzrad朱本主子卓转播:

让他们徒劳的投资这些公器（实乃私器）吧，直到压垮他们仍然无救，那就是我们的曙光初照。

连岳 :京华时报：永州市法院枪击案后，北京市各级法院都已加强了安保力度。部分法院实行了贴身扫描、启动24小时安防监控系统等措施。——公正才是最好的安保措施。

post panorama to panoramio.^read since got up. posted latest tweets to 163&qq. posted recent photos to family panoramio. tried to update&addons songbird to play bible radio, but again failed. maybe i need a solution for online radio. hunted for d/l late afternoon. mother cooked rich meal. haunted front plaza&shot more photos. visited building new house in outer field of Zhudajiu. buzzed baby’s mom discussing if she would bring baby son visit Zhudajiu in coming summer vacation&return to Qiqihar whole family before new term, but she refuted. sorted stuff in night, read more after watched awhile TV about Japan’s new primer. a neighbor son returned with his wife, who both lives in Xi’an, western China, in dusk.

benzrad’s tweet on Jun 5,2010

tried new panorama tool.^worked since got up. tried a new panorama creator but didn’t satisfied. village girl students visited&gamed on my notebook. os infected again amid trying new radio softwares. restored os after gaming girls left. now clearer sky waving to me in surfing waves.
post photo, esp. panorama to domestic web album.^dined in backyard. haunted village front yard. chatted with a guy in his front yard, also shot photo for a visiting elder woman. teased some kids in the village open space, till some demon kids too annoying. post recent photos, esp panorama of village’s front space to domestic web album.

benzrad’s tweet on Jun 6,2010

read, then let village girls gamed on notebook as God grants.^enjoyed reading till the 2 girls visited again. wondered in sunshine in front yard, talking with dad&baby son, God of Universe. met another girl who smartest&missing in morning for she visited her grandma since last afternoon. mother let vendor installed new gas range. its a blessing afternoon.
dined with beer. haunted outside, shot a baby girl&invited to dine with their family by a retired doctor. shown them movie of his granddaughter’s performance on their TV. returned when it dark. talked to baby how i glad today with communication with God&him in sunshine.

From Hometown Journey Ⅱ

for picasaweb&flickr blocked within China mainland, the shit&dog dominated sinful land, here some digest of photos hosted domestically.

a gracious sunset.

village Zhudajiu’s kids and cows, which less and less nowadays.

panorama of Zhudajiu’s front space.朱大九村口全景图。

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finally equipped myslef with a 320GB portable disk.

Thu, 03 Jun 2010 06:04:33 -0400

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tweets on Jun 2,2010

God, i got my new portable hard disk. thx!^finally got my 3rd portable hard disk with my elder sister’s loan, including 2 wrecked in those years, like flying in clear sky! just got all data backup onto it. so clean now! the purchase happened in the county city, with my 2 brother-in-law&a nephew’s companion. shot more photos on the way for panorama. now i can drive my notebook more swiftingly with less data load on it. without breakfast i launched, delayed some time in the county for elder sister who brought the loan arrived lately. its cloudy in the mornging, but turns sunny when i returned home&launched to migrate/backup data onto the new hard disk. now it turned pale again. God saves.

enjoy new portable storage.^migrated&backup data to new portable disk most afternoon, real nice work. mother bough fish. dined in back yard among dirty neighbor wives. haunted outside when mother babbled with a cheap woman. chatted with some folks in front plaza of the village. demons, including my elder brother, and good willed villagers let me wonder in front of fish pond in front Zhudajiu. buzzed baby’s mom about remission. felt discrete but mother sat aside me in room attempting rabbling. God, clear my way toward the Holy!

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raining day after flashing sunny days.

Thu, 27 May 2010 23:16:30 -0400

this is a serene morning, after a raining night. its lunar Apr 15, so lots of crackers in dawn by villagers memorising their ancestors. i was deeply concerning the portable hard disk God grants me previously. i asked for lean from my youngest elder sister, she promised but so far didn’t inform me when i can get it. sinful eldest brother approached me by the excuse of talking his daughter in college in Wuhan, and sat on my stool and profaned quite some moments. i sang for joys after published recent photos. God, dad, Masheng, when is my new marriage that brings me harmony never seen?

below is recent tweets&comments by benzrad, 朱子卓.

26/5/2010

baby’s birthday ignored by his mom.^read most day. dozed at noon but woke up by 2 visiting old women in the village. shown them online album for one of them shot by me previously. arranged downloading after dinner then haunted outside. shot some photos in front plaza. chatted with an villager once worked in the county city. baby’s mom, emakingir, tentatively ignored baby’s birthday today, abiding her mother’s freaky picking baby’s birthday annually by comparing lunar calendar with Gregorian calendar. shits!sick and sin of mother.^read all day. mother fetched the granddaughter-in-law of my elder brother, a Hu, who is about 2 years old and likely lack of affection, to home to care, for elder brother family busy with field harvest. cared download. at noon got the idea that equipped myself with a portable harddisk. buzzed my youngest elder sister&got her promise of lend me the money. mother complained of sick of too many shits, bought some medicine late afternoon. i haunted outside after dinner, chatted with a worker of state grid but lives in the village. mother again surveillance me&urged me to return home early when i in chat. in night her sick view of personal affection or love shown itself, which quite sinful as God informed me already, to me. God, dad, i never waste a second on the dark in my mother’s soul, i linger here for u, for my new life with my girls, esp. girl zhou, my 3rd wife, and my second wife, Masheng, never let me fail in peace on ur lovable land, Zhudajiu village.

Benzrad’s comment on May 26,2010
so acute the point!!!
by dabbog@gmail.com (benzrad zhu朱子卓)China mainland nowadays no doubting falling into its last struggle against breaking apart. the dictation elite squad long time preparing for their exit, tried best to grasp more treasures with their corpses in tomb covered by earth. darkness by the evils already scattered by the original potential of Chinese, esp. the heavily handicapped Chinese peasants. China, never belongs to republic nor communist.

in reference to: http://www.oschina.net/news/9353?from=rss
(view on Google Sidewiki)27/5/2010
haircut.^sleepy morning. haircut after breakfast, bu the visiting barber’s razor let my upper lid bleeding. it drizzled in the morning. hope i can get my portable hardisk sooner.

raining day.^read all time. second time told mother God grants me no anxiousness with living (yesterday told her God grants the new portable harddisk.), to assure her to rip her usual doubts. she sinfully left dad’s house at once in doubts, i also re-download a radio software to reconnect to bible radio. sleepy when i rest on long bench while listening preach in air, however, i managed on notebook, &finished following a talk program from the radio. God, Masheng, let me get my portable harddisk tomorrow in a sunny day, let me talk to baby&his mom, &fix her chrome sooner. Masheng, u asked for assignment, i know, pl bring my girl zhou, as well as my other girls under my Royal of China, join me in new marriage ahead in most blessed time or moment. raining night with remote support for baby’s mom.^bathed to clean cut hairs. watched awhile TV till mother retreated from my room. help baby’s mom, emakingir, to fix her frequently crashed chrome by equipping it with a new extension to backup/restore sessions, all done online. also tried new way to video chat, now that gtalk heavily lagging&echoes. told my coming new portable hard disk. it rains harder in night. i really love it.

benzrad’s comment on May 27,2010

富士康昨晚12跳，传闻第13跳也已发生llp azxj - 老郭的鞠躬太牛了，每次一结束就跳，求你别鞠躬了，好好反思解决根本问题吧 11:58 am

benzrad zhu - young Chinese expressing deep desperation with their lives, in the face of deaf&dumbfound Chinese authority nowadays. 1:41 pm

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lovable booming summer arriving!

Wed, 19 May 2010 22:38:57 -0400

19/5/2010

busy day, end it with family plaxo profile refined.^read most day. sorted stuff from web. late afternoon visited front plaza of the village&elder brother’s house. shot some photos. teased the grandson of brother. dined in back yard of my dad’s old house. baby’s mom, emakingir, inquired Chinese job sites, but refused to elaborate online in night, when i tried to chat with baby son via QQ. check ema’s 163 blogs, refined family plaxo profiles, done till near 10pm.

20/5/2010

a warm cloudy morning.^the rubbish rabbles among sinful neighbor wives woke me up, and drove me getting up. sang in echo of birds’ twitters. a visiting niece’s shows her astonish upon baby son’s smartness, and enchanted me. then prepared recent photos for publish. roasters croaking around, so peaceful a village scene!

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Holy message closer to me.

Tue, 11 May 2010 05:40:35 -0400

11/5/2010

yesterday is an important memory for me, in my hometown journey 2nd, for i earnestly talk to and with God, my passed dad. the day just after some chilly raining days, i read most of the day near my dad’s old house’s front door, which rightly monitored by the evil dark house’s owner, the second husband of my early passed aunt, a diligent woman who left me life time memory, a said once bare poor in the village before the new republic China. the demon’s window just peeking our front door, just under a slope. the demon polluted me all the day with his tomb chill, so when i felt reading enough, i haunted the village’s hall with my camera. but the front square of the village don’t gather any interesting young men as usual, so i picked to travel the newly developing wing of the village, where most of the offspring of the dark house owner shifted their houses to, as well as other minor or confluent family trees in the village where almost all residents in family name Zhu. its a fruitful tour, in which my blended memory and anxiousness called forth. the back hill is the main well being source of the villagers, but all that led by my passed dad when he left his factory for injury on his toes in a blast in rocks and returned to the village. he continued his work with steer tools to make use of stones on our back hill for bridges or other building usage, by unearthed them, sorted them, trimmed&polish them for ready brick or block or other frameworks. his works not only support my education which is the best among my sisters and brothers, but forges my best cherished memory and hope and belief and lifestyle on being a man. that occurred amid the transition China opening to the world from deadly locked communism doctrine. the young villagers gradually all follow my dad’s lead and improved their lives a lot in these decades by producing tombstone from the hill. but the village, or town, badly need a new business pattern in coming eras. in the tour, i not only led by worship to the hills protecting our village, but also irritated by the shockingly unregulated development after my dad’s years on the mountain. waste and unreasonable building reflects the Chinese society and its culture. i took quite some nice photos on the scenes.
after returned home, i babbled&query a lot about the passed villagers and rise or fall of families in their sins or glories. i sensed God, my passed dad, so close to me and my vision. in reviewing my homeless status, my heart weighting, my hope dimmed upon my faith of my coming Royal of China, my family in incomparable glory. i especially looking forward the reunion with my beloved girls, with my baby son, God of Universe, Hope of China, who brings me so many happy moments. but God comforts me with universe message in Holy spirit, that i was rightly in learning, in a road of witness and sharping vision, in a road of harden wills to change, change the most cold-blooded shelter or defense by devils to drag China backward or inward. in the dusk, i was lightened by God’s message, lightened by the rule and command God trusts me to execute.
when night covered the sky with black, i tried to chat with baby, to whom i’m so thankful, but unfortunately, his mom, emakingir, rebuffed my invitation. i guess China surveillance took action trying to separate us. God, u know the way all these mean to lead out.

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A large gap digged by villagers’ quarry.

a new villager’s house can described as luxury.

a village pond, so lovable, but other 2 ponds missing or pulluted.

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